Nice day to you...

Good mornin... bonjour...bonjornio... hola
How are we feeling today? Aah a new day.. the sun tips past the horizon.. racing with its own light. How wonderful it feels to wake up to a new day! However today I am alien to that feeling. Not for the fact that its not a nice day. But I haven't waken up- One needs to sleep to wake up. I know health is wealth- that's why I'm struggling with my finances. Heh Work pressure's real nice n sweet. She's kept me up for more than a week now. Got to flirt with Slumber just once about 3-4 days back... Man, I miss my bed. :( But work is work, and no compromise there. Just have to figure out a way to balance them. Prayer is the key. Open up your life and do more! Have to win in all spheres... Tough challnges ahead. But its fun!

Now I have to go get some veggies and meat from the market... Dad's outta town, n I love the smell of the market... wish I had time to do this on a regular basis. But its cool. As much as one can do- and try to make it count, right? Anyways enough of it. Its just plain shopping, man.. Ebar jai, else I won't get the fresh veggies n Maya mashi (our house-keeper) won't have time to cook.. N I won't get to eat at home.. And I dn like that...

A mistake...

Hope life's been good to you since you've been gone
I'm doing fine, I finally moved on
Its not so bad, Im not that sad
I'm just surprised how well I survived
And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
My heart only breaks when its beating
So I hold my breath to forget
Don't think I'm lying around crying at night
C'mon, destiny is what you make of it, right?
Remember that I've always loved you
And nothing can change that...

[Written by a lost friend of mine- Dareen
Hope she is doing fine.
My prayers for you.]

Paradox II

The buildings stare at me
With those unblinking eyes
The sun is shy, today
The mood is not right
A deafenind roar,
Unending,
The sound of my heartbeat
Like a psychedelic drum
Played through the night
It reminds me always
Of the pain in joy
Looking for some reason
Where there ain't none.

2004

Paradox

Eternity is a paradox of the soul, or are we just too many words, that will mean something, someday. Will my faith be questioned, the day I fly? Never will you find the reason, for which we die.

Diaries and memories... VIII

?Am I there yet.



Drive off into the distance on the right
The line of destiny blurred
Going over the edge of time
To theworld just next door

If you look true
If you look hard
At the edge of a star, at the lake's skin
And find me
Remind me of the day I cried
Of salt and dust
Shivers in my spine
I know someday I'll be rising.

Fire in the very air
Burning the passion inside, hot coals
Coals of doubt eats me up
The pain of knowing what's goin on

Don't add fuel
let me find my way
Step by step
Outta this maze
The cruel mockery of my mid
The Man within

Withiut me, I'm nowhere
Without I, I can never die
Knowing me inside out
Leave the outside blurred
Ride with me into the distance of the night
Maybe someday you'll meet me, Reason.

2003, Palash Mitra

Moon II

The wind whistles at me
As I search for the sun
Night beckons - alluring
The promise of a full moon
Shining just right
Want reasons for my questions
Answers eluding my every moove
Motion is a deception of thought
A promise of elusive content.

My ship sails high
On the horizon of my mind
My thoughts- moving in tandem
The wind of despair blow through
Pushes my ship into action
The sad times - the bad times
Life - energy - me
Alive. Free

2003. Palash Mitra

Diaries and memories... VII

...Scared...


Would I go the distance?
A speck in the purple sky
Horizons blurred in my mind
Ye ask me nw
Would I lie - today?
Can I cry, ye say
Rivers run too deep in my soul
No tears in my eyes
Rocks hold 'em back
Too huge for anyone
Even you
Even me.

I see no end, no fear
The abyss of Love, scared
Can't get up from the mess
Dying hands hold me back
Sold my soul twice, thrice
Dould my soul again tonite.
The devil smiles at me
He watches, he knows
Would he lie to me
He does s for a living
Gives false hopes
I ain't trapped yet
Why, oh why did I live to die?

I smile today, laugh too
Laugh my heart out
My heart bleeds,
Have reached the horizon
The edge under my feat
Both ways pulling, scared
Hold me please, I'm scared.


OKAY types... 2003, Palash Mitra

Diaries and memories... VI

I lost a very dear friend- family ... some years back. Though she wasn't someone I had any romantic feelings for.. nonetheless, she was quite dear. This is dedicated to her.

--Farewell--

Hey baby, this is a sad song
I'll sing for you
To the tune of the night
Let me just do this right
I need to forget
But I can't now
Hey baby, I know you feel sad

the memory lingers
From the day at the park
the first meeting, the touch
Till the day you left.
Give my regards to god.
I hope you are well
Nice and snug
Dreaming your best dreams
In your bed of roses
Your flight of fantasy
Fly high, my butterfly.

Christina, the sweetest
I hear your name in the night
The breeze mocking me
Calling to me to embrace it
Oh girl, how sad I feel
If only you knew how much
Just how much you meant to me
Its like the fading memory
Of that jingle I once loved,
Tink, tink, tinker, tinker
I still love that jingle
No matter what...

I hear you smiling
As I walk along
The flowery trails, sweet
Sweet ol' memory lane
I loved that smile
So genuine, so fresh
As if it embraced the Earth
And made all smile.
It made me smile

Oh dear, don't be sad
I'm still smiling
As I dream of us
Floating side by side
In the river of freedom
Farewell my dear
Don't be sad
Rest in peace, my eternal love.

2003, Palash Mitra

Diaries and Memories V

..Dawn.. 

A purple haze, misty eyes
The dawn is breaking
In my life
the leaves are wet
Dew as sweet as wine
Let the radiance of the new day shine

Shine, as it has never before
Start the story all over again
The mucis had stopped
Yet begins again
More melodious and sweet as ever
This is a new song, old ones gone
Like the past events
SAd to say the least

the eagles fly high above, soaring up
Up and higher
Freedom never felt so great
Let me fly I just wanna touch the sky

Reach for the heavens
And you might find it
Deep within
The strength tp lead forth
To carry on, ever
The bigger picture had never been so clear
So much to do
And so much time
Oh jsut let me fly
And let me on my way now

2003, Palash Mitra

A.N.G.E.L.

***Your Angel***

The memory is painful
It haunts you
The ghosts of your past
You crouch, afraid
Crawl under the bed
Its dark in there.It'll never let go, never  ever stop,
Haunting

Washed your face?
Did it help?
Can't was away the memories
tortures you in your dreamz
Won't leave you ever in light
Your ghosts reflected in the mirror
They'll just multiply
Feel like crying, don't you?

The man crossing the street
He waved at you, smiling
Couldn't he have passed by
But the truck stopped too late
The man lay asleep in his bed
His bed wet with red
Couldn't he have just passed by
Who was he?
Why did he wave?
He is a faceless man now - you'll never know
Never, ever.

the bullet whizzed past you
Inches from your face
You wonder what might have been
You turn and see
Another faceless man.
His hand raised- finger cold
Can't find him
He's lost in the crowd
Your angel of death.

The bus rattled up the bumpy road
Sheer cliffs fall down till eternity
Beyond sight and thought
you cling on for dear life
He slips but doesn't fall
The faceless man- looks you in the eye
Pleading to you - to save his life
Your life passes you by
As death stares you in the face.
So it seems,
You reach for him, but can't hold on
your fingers touch
But its too late
He wastes his life in his jump
Into eternity
His angel of death will save him
Doesn't he believe that?
Embrace him with open arms
Far below down those sheer cliffs
Your angel stands beside you.
Look behind. He smiles

When is your turn you wonder
You wonder whther one day
There'll be some last person you wave to
Someone to reach for
Someone to recognise
Before you take that fatal step
Or that jump into eternl space
You wonder whether one day
You'll be that faceless man
Haunting someone else's dreams
Turning them into nightmares
You wish it will never happen
You know the agony - know how it feels
Feeling cold?
A slight shiver,
Its your angel of death
Standing beside you, smiling.
Feel like cryin, don't you?


OKAY..... SOME CRAZY STUFF, MAN!!
AGAIN 2002 Palash Mitra

Diaries and memories... IV

...**Candle-lit stars**...

In my dreams, I see the mist
That clogs my mind & our souls
We lose our selves and the path
The fog engulfing around us all
And try to reach for the far ones
Doubts & suspicions
Misunderstandings, all rooted out
From the depths of the fog

Throw some light my way
Throw some light my way
I need to know where I'm heading
Throw some light my way
thorw some light my way
I need to know if you need me
Throw some light my way
I need to know what you're feeling.

The clear fields seem like forests
Asumptions- we always make
Reality- a shadow in the dark
Truth seems to be a lie
And they overcome our lives
We grope in the dark, the forest
Searching for a hint of direction...
And then I see you

Throw some light my way
Throw some light my way
I need to know where I'm heading
Throw some light my way
thorw some light my way
I need to know if you need me
Throw some light my way
I need to know what you're feeling.
Throw some light my way, Yeah darling
And make my day.

2001, Palash Mitra

Moon I

...**$ A White Dot $**...

The white dot in the black sky
Speaking of love, and timeless beauty
the moon in all its glory
Bathing in the moonlight
Cool summer breeze, caressing
The heart and soul of the lover
Making him sad, yet happy
Longing for his loved one
The desire to love and be loved
Burning within ever
Yet cooled by the wind
Her name whispered in his dreams
What be her name
The moon reflecting her face
The white dot in the dark sky.

The silver lining beyond the cloudless sky
Optimism, mysticism
The sky in gllom, grey & lifeless
Reflects the mood
The sun deep in thought
Even he needs rest
Sad, is losing its glow
Yet it shows, shining through
The cold and the snow
An image of your mind
Shines as the light falls
The light of day
The light of night
Doing away with the gloom
A warm spot amidst the cold
Passion burning still

Yet, what of the dark night
As it takes over the again
The lover finds solace and peace
A moment of his own
And yet never his
He gets to dream
The desire ever there
A little wishful, as if in a whisper
He wants to say,
'I love you, forever'
As if in the dream, he sees her
He wants to keep her
Captured in time
An epitome of timeless beauty
Like the moon he looks at
As if he wants to shout out a whisper
'I need you in my arms'

and all the words
The day, the light & passion
of all, forbids.
He wants her name
Ever glowing in his heart
To be written in stars
He does that
the stars speak of her
Winking, 'she can hear you'
she too sees the beauty of such
The wite dot on the dark sky.

2001, Palash Mitra
[Written for no one specific]
[:D crap]

Diaries and memories... III

Time

Tic toc, tic toc
The clock runs, angry hands
Never to stop
Ever spinning, till eternity bids it
Time  is the mortal enemy
Going against us
As it always has
Or tis the eternal healer
Its the shadow of the sun
Its witness for all
It has seen me through
All the ages of pain
Through all the rivers of blood
The endless sands of time
Or so they say.

Lives are run down anr more spring up
All under the faithful watch
Seen by the Observer
The very creator\, or maybe the destructor
The true nature ne'er to be known

As you pass by
So does my agony
I let go of it
All the sorrow of ages
Wrapped up in a messy package
Decor of laces
The momentory joys
The laughs ans the tears
Freedom and bondage
The laces bind, yet keep it strong

As I stooped
the sweat and the blood, dripped and dripped
Took with them bits of me
Bits of my life's energy
Bits of my soul
As I soar
I regain them
I see my life
Reflected in your eyes
See the pain in yours
And forget mine.
You try to hide it, but I can see
I comfort you, and regain my soul
You give me back
Those very moments
Those very bits
That were stolen
From me, as I lay
Alone in the dark
Somewhere along the highway of life.

2002, Palash Mitra